The Next Chapter

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This past year has brought with it many tears, laughs, love, frustration, fear, and joy. Every life has its ups and downs, every life experiences pain at some point no matter how joyful you aim to be. While my wardrobe has come down to a more simplified grey-scale, but life has been anything but. Here's a quick recap of my year;

  • I booked four weddings as a lead shooter, three for video, one for photography
  • I changed my business model to offer my clients prints
  • I celebrated 2 years together with my boyfriend, Eric
  • I turned 21
  • I booked 4 more weddings before the new year
  • I made new friends
  • I hiked my 12th 14er this year
  • I got to go back to Mexico for mission work
  • I rebranded as an adventure photographer and found my style
  • I am making the push toward wedding videography
  • I made my own bed and redecorated my room
  • I got a new job and finally quit Starbucks
  • I spent the entire summer learning from incredible photographers through second shooting various people and assisting Elevate Photography
  • I got out to explore our beautiful state of Colorado

I could go on and on with all the wonderful things I got to do this year, but I'm most pleased with the fact that I was able to learn so much. This past year has brought explosive growth to my business and me personally.

I believe that in order to succeed, you must remain in a constant state of learning

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If you aren't learning, you aren't growing, if you don't grow, you become stagnant, and that is my greatest fear. I don't want to be burnt out in the next 10 years, I want to be going strong, and the only way to do that, is to keep learning. But this year, I also became somewhat consumed by that fear of failure.

I worry that I'm being unrealistic in my hopes and dreams, that I'm not approaching things from a logical perspective, and that my decision to bypass school, will come to bite me in the butt. I always dug in and worked as hard as I could, but that was always there especially as winter hit, bookings slowed down, and my hours were cut back at my current job.

I couldn't be more thankful for the supportive people in my life. The people who have helped me plan my business, push me further, and help keep me on track for making smart moves. They're the kind of people that challenge me as a person, make me want to be better than I am, and experience all the world has to offer. They're the people I'm grateful to call friends and mentors. I've had to experience letting go of old friends, people who no longer answer your calls, or simply those who walked a different direction in life. 

Back in high school, I thought these people were all I'd ever have, I thought they were my best friends until the end, and they were wonderful for those four to six years that we knew each other, we helped each other through thick and thin, but I've had to learn, through experiencing my own change, that everybody does go different directions and people change. Sometimes you can't do anything about it but watch them go their own path, wish them the best, and move on. When it's time to let go, just  L E T   G O.

I've struggled with that a little this year, but I feel, as I begin to fully grow into myself, understand myself, and become the person I was made to be, the friendships I surround myself with become more genuine, more important, and more resilient to petty things. For this, I am grateful.

So to those of you who have left my life
I   T H A N K   Y O U
You allowed me to let go of who I was
And to those of you who came into my life this year
I   T H A N K   Y O U
For helping me grow into the person I am today

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I don't want to make resolutions for the new year, I think every time I've made a resolution, I've stopped halfway through. I need goals in order to succeed. This is partly due to my love for checklists and crossing things off, and party because I need something attainable and specific. Here are a few of this year's goals;

  • Book 10 weddings
  • Find an editor and begin outsourcing my work
  • Begin a website redesign by October
  • Blog every other week
  • Blog about personal things once a month
  • Reach 1k instagram followers
  • Hike 5 14ers
  • Begin working out twice a week
  • Climb once a month
  • Move out
  • Be Intentional

I plan to do my best to hit all my marks this year. I didn't check off the majority of last year's goals, hence why one of my goals is to be intentional. I also got a planner in hopes that helps me keep organized and constantly looking at my goals list.

I hope and pray that this year brings new change and more growth. I do not want to be the same person by this time next year, I hope to be better, stronger, and driven toward my dreams. So here's to the new year everybody. There is hope, and know that the only person standing between you and the success you dream of, is you. Push past, and push beyond.

 

Here's to 2017

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